Anxiety

Being a single mom has definitely brought on plenty of responsibility, hardship, joy, but honestly one of the biggest things: anxiety. For me, it's because of not having my immediate family living nearby to help. Every time Logan even gets the slightest sniffle or cough, I go into panick mode and think of what the heck I'm going to do because I can't afford to miss any more work until next year. But even then, what happens next year? Do I use all of my vacation time for when he gets sick? I hope it doesn't end up being over 7 days. That's almost what I've had to use so far in the last 4-5 months between leaving early or not going into work at all. If there was ever a feeling of helplessness.. I get it every time. I want to care for my son, but I also am his provider and I'm screwed if I don't work. I hate feeling so torn. I hate not having someone beside me. I just want that comfort of knowing I have nothing to worry about. Wait, what is that like?