Debt diet

What is that anyway? According to Oprah it's a plan set up to get out of debt? I'm not sure how diet fits into that ratio though. In the last year + of being on my own and a single parent, I have not doubled, not tripled, more like quadrupled my debt. Depressing? That's an understatement. Do I care? Not every day. Do I break down about it? Yes. Do I have any kind of solution? Not yet. Majority of the debt I am now up to my eye balls in is because of just trying to survive and the cost of living. Yes, I get child support but taking a paycut of roughly $200 a month for a job to get my foot in the door has not exactly helped. I would be doing a whole lot better and most likely be paying things off had I been bringing in the extra cash every month. But, that is a whole other story about going for what I want and making sacrifices (is it always worth it?). It's bad that my goal is to basically be completely out of debt by the time I'm 30 and to own something of my own by that point as well - condo, 2 bedroom house.. 3+ bedroom house.. something! I have five years to go and it's not looking so bright. In order to get there I think I would have to live off ramen noodles, mac n cheese for Logan and tap water for the next few years. It's possible but not at all likely.

It's one of those things that I wish maybe I shouldn't have made that crazy last minute decision to stay in Florida and try things on my own. Do the "right" thing. Every time I think I'm doing the right thing, it somehow always.. always ends up being so very wrong and kicks me in the ass. Knocks me even further down when I feel like I can't be knocked down anymore! But, then I look around at what I have, what I have achieved and continue to do and I then kick my own ass for being so negative. Life will never be easy, nor have I ever expected it to be, but every now and then - or even just once or twice in my life I would like something to go smoothly.