Change of plan!

I never ever thought I would be staying in Orlando until yesterday when my brain did a huge flip flop. I guess because I'm getting days away from leaving for TN, I started thinking about how much I really am giving up, and I finally considered the idea of staying here for me (and Logan too, of course), and if I could afford it. I called up my ex and we talked about how a schedule would work out with Logan and last night we discussed all of the financial issues and it definitely will work! I would need to find a two bedroom apartment no higher than $900 a month though. I didn't waste any time; today Logan and I went apartment hunting near where I work since there's a number of places. I unknowingly started high and went low. The first place we saw was absolutely gorgeous and the epitomy of a luxury apartment, and defintely something that I wouldn't be able to afford any time in the near future. The second and third places were alright, something I could deal with. Well, the third place maybe not so much; the moment I walked into the model, the smell of mold and mildew hit me. That's your model?! I couldn't believe it. That was basically a last resort and if I absolutely (no really, absolutely) had to. There was one other place that I drove by.. I knew they were apartments but there was just a bunch of signs for condos. It was one of those places that went condo. Darn. I went online a lot today to read reviews on all of these places (including the condo one). Something made me call the condo place to double check if they weren't leasing anymore. They were! Logan and I ran back out, they only had one two bedroom, two bath left. It's an end unit, brand new updated kitchen, someone owns it but is renting it out for $800. Could it be any more perfect for us?! I took the application, went home and I couldn't help it.. I had to give them a deposit. What if someone showed up in the last two hours the office was open today and snagged it before I could tomorrow? I couldn't live with that, so I filled everything out, got all of the necessary paperwork together and we went back! Poor Logan didn't get an afternoon nap because of all our running around (althought he did take a 2 hour nap this morning). I'm finally getting happy about this rock bottom point in my life. I never thought I would be living on my own.. especially being days away from living with my parents. My mind set as of yesterday has been why not move out now on my own.. it would take me forever to get to this point in Tennessee.
I will see what this next year brings me and if it doesn't work out, then there will always be the option of moving north. My ex and I have worked out a good schedule with our son so things are definitely looking up. As of this coming weekend, Logan and I will be on our own! How unreal is that?!

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Living in the slow lane

I can't believe it has been a whole year since I came home from the hospital with my little man. I vividly remember sleeping with one eye open the whole night. I was so paranoid something would happen now that he was completely in my care; I didn't have any nurses around to aid his every need. I'm definitely thankful I'm not in all of the pain I was experiencing a year ago. Although, I would go through that over and over again to get the result I came home with.
The past year flew right before my eyes.. I have so many memories with my little guy, but I wish he had been that little blob for just a few months longer. One thing I love about his wild phase right now though is when I hold him, he'll often rest his head on my shoulder.. that's almost better than holding him like a football when he was "tiny" (He was never a small baby). I have definitely slowed down a lot and tried to cherish one day at a time, and I have him to thank for that. My life was always about getting to the next phase and never looking back. Now, I do wish to see what new things will happen tomorrow.. but I'm always looking back on the days I've had with my handsome blue eyes.