Media distractions

Logan is currently taking his afternoon nap and I should be packing, but I couldn't pass up the opportunity to turn on an adult show for a change. Being a woman, I obviously turned on Oprah since he went down at 4:00. The topic today is about single fathers sharing their stories of fatherhood. I was already really emotional today about my divorce situation, but this put me over the edge. All of these fathers lost their wives to death. They never actually wanted to be a single father, or were put in their situation because their wives didn't want to be with them. I couldn't help but think of myself/my situation. She stated a quote from someone who had been on a previous show that was along the lines of: "Every father carries a dream in his heart for his family." What kind of dream is this? I feel like I'm lost in a nightmare.